polar opposites

hey everyone sorry i haven't really written. it's been a tough couple of weeks. i'm slowly but surely getting through and becoming happier each day. to recap everything.. we all know i wanted him back.. i missed him. this last...

i'll be burning through

fricken frickckckckck i hate night time.. it's when i start to relax and calm down.. and also when i start to think and think and think. it makes me sad :( i can't help it. i hate myself for my body letting that happen to my baby. it's the...

taste the tears

this isn't something i'm ever going to completely get over.. i really believe that. i wasn't expecting anything like this to happen.. no one does. when are things ever going to get better? ugh, i don't know what to do with myself! hopefully...

miscarriage

no one should ever have to go through anything like this. i seriously can't deal with so much pain.. mentally, emotionally, and physically. it's terrible.

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doctor's think i might have miscarried.

mm.. starbucks

hey everryonnnne :) i'm just sitting here drinking a smoothie from starbucks. i'm bummed cuz i can't my usual green tea latte (since it has caffeine), but this is pretty dang good! my speech is in less than 24 hours!! ahhhh so nervous. i...

wayne's world

i deleted him off of facebook. immature? a little bit. it hurts me to look at his fb and i do it often (because i'm stupid) so, i deleted him. simple fix. it'll end up backfiring on me i'm sure, but whatever. i wish he'd try talking to me. i...

new moon

i just want to sleep until everything is better again. life can be so frustrating :( i've been on the verge of breaking down for about a month now. i think i'm going to crack very, very soon. yesterday was a semi-decent day. i slept in, got a...

pizza

hey how's everyone doing? today was a very uneventful & lazy day. this morning was sort of fun though.. i went to spanish day by 9 and i worked the "agencia de viajes" (travel agent) i didn't realize how much i've surpassed high schoolers in...

losing a whole year

i'm just sitting here watching whose line is it anyways with my friend. tomorrow's going to be an early day!.. my spanish class is helping put on spanish day so i'm going to be working that. i get to see a lot of people from my high school..but i'm...

Adoption

I'm 99.9% sure I'm keeping my baby. I have a huge family who is offering me a ton of support... emotionally, physically, financially. Love will NOT be an issue at all. I strongly believe I will be able to give my baby a loving and safe home. Is...

dreams

i had a dream about him last night.. it made me sad when i woke up. now it's going to be "that" kind of day. my alarm didn't go off this morning either so i missed my psych class. fricken a. itd be so nice just to sleep the rest of the day. on a...

20 and pregnant.

soo, i'm just doing this because my life has become a great big drama fest. a few weeks ago during spring break, right after my ex broke up with me because he couldn't picture us having a future & started to see another girl (when we were...