polar opposites

hey everyone sorry i haven't really written. it's been a tough couple of weeks. i'm slowly but surely getting through and becoming happier each day. to recap everything.. we all know i wanted him back.. i missed him. this last...

i'll be burning through

fricken frickckckckck i hate night time.. it's when i start to relax and calm down.. and also when i start to think and think and think. it makes me sad :( i can't help it. i hate myself for my body letting that happen to my baby. it's the...

taste the tears

this isn't something i'm ever going to completely get over.. i really believe that. i wasn't expecting anything like this to happen.. no one does. when are things ever going to get better? ugh, i don't know what to do with myself! hopefully...


no one should ever have to go through anything like this. i seriously can't deal with so much pain.. mentally, emotionally, and physically. it's terrible.


doctor's think i might have miscarried.