taste the tears

this isn't something i'm ever going to completely get over.. i really believe that. i wasn't expecting anything like this to happen.. no one does. when are things ever going to get better? ugh, i don't know what to do with myself!

hopefully tomorrow i can occupy myself with family and food :P i hope no one says anything to me. i want to start bawling everytime someone tells me they're sorry.. but i hate crying in front of people so it takes all my power not to. the nurse at the e.r. was so compassionate and nice.. and kept apologizing and just staring at me with hurting eyes. it kills me. i know they're just feeling for me and stuff, but ughh it's so hard.

i wish i knew God's plan. i know he works in mysterious ways.. i just don't see the point of giving me a baby for 10 weeks and then taking it away. i trust him though.

sorry i've been so depressing. i hope everyone has a good Easter. :)
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Comments (1)

  1. melissam90

    wow.. i can’t even imagine how hard that would be. i’ll definitely pray for you. good luck with everything and thanks for the support.

    April 04, 2010
  2. meme1987

    Some people in world resolve the matters for the community and it show that they have lot of courage as they complete the needs for the family and did not explain their problem in ahead of any one. The God is the only faith for them as they discuss their matters with him. If we make choice in customwriting prices then they may get the bets selection from huge number.

    March 30, 2017
  3. melissam90

    Thanks. I know he does.. it’s just definitely soo soo hard sometimes!

    April 04, 2010